Written while listening to beautiful piano and violin notes

Unable to think,Unable to say
In this state of mere emptiness
I cant explain this feeling
When notes in pain touches the ears
When mind swings in harmony
I borne the heaviness in heart
Eyes are still,heart beats faster
I cant explain this feeling


When lonliness fills my mind
I struggle to escape the feeling
I try to hate,i try to ignore
But something stops me from inside
Within a moment I break my promises
Releases the constraints free


Oh mind let silence be your answer
when words and emotions hesitate
I cant trust the emotions tat eludes me
I cant pretend to be happy
Is this true or an illusion?

Living in dreams ,thinking of nothing
Unbounded from all constraints
Where worries vanish and happiness matters
I like to lead a life in dreams.
Life when reveals dream as imaginary
Fascination as a drift in mind
Smiles that evolved from all illusions
Fades as reality comes in face to face.

To my friend Chitra

We were so different in nature
With some things in common
No matter how much we laughed
No matter how much we fought
Trust and support grew within us.
Tears reveal your value in absence
Feeling of having someone builds the bond
Moments may fade with time
Memories of cheerful days stays forever.

U never know who you are unless u r frustrated……………..

Thoughts are flowing without any fullstop.Still in search of a topic.Why am I not able to reach up anywhere?.May be my mind never runs short of thoughts.I think I shoud write about my unstable job,my weird thoughts about life .Hmm….feels like I have changed .May be now I do what I really want rather than listening to others and getting more confused. When u deep digger u still reach the ultimate truth of lonliness.Noone in this world has a company .We can share our feelings but cannot make anyone experience it.I will share with you an experience of someone I know but cannot really agree to tat as the person has never let anyone know about herself.You will say that she is the most jovial person you have met.But the inner person was not alike. She had all her concerns deep in herself . she was trying to escape from the cruel world.She didn’t even want to believe people whom she should have.Strange is the way mind works that provides ways to escape rather than confronting .However her mind took some wrong turns that really turned up to a state where she couldn’t recognize herself.I really do think most of us are like that in some ways ..We try to be different among the world and that somehow wins a good name in society still the real person hiding behind reality.Its something like that we should not express our true feelings no matter how depressed you are.If you express yourself genuinely then world treats you strange…Actually who all constitutes in this word ‘world’. Human beings who might have gone through the same experience and still when they see it happening to someone else it becomes a story.

Everyone in this world is busy. They have their own worries and problems. But if they lend their ears to their dear ones concerns u can avoid situations of showing pity after a tragedy. The best way to know people is listening.When you give space the gap bridges. When you understand someone even if they are different you try to adjust and convey your opinion in a better way.It shows that you are being cared.Unless you speak up no one will understand .Everyone waits for the action to happen from somewhere.No one likes to get hurt but ironically does the same.You can never please all the people in this world and expect recognition. Some people won’t realize and care enough to make out how much others love them. They have picture of a person and puts it in a non fragile frame .They see people in others eyes based on their opinion.“u cant change a person but can try to understand the nature. really hard to accept a person as such.It gives a hit to our comfort level.easy to hear speeches but to bring it into reality is a bit hard ,impossible without patience.


“U cant make everyone happy but can be a reason to many.”

To the person I love the most

I don’t have words to describe you
How much pain u have endured
I try to make u happy despite your pains
I cant change destiny but be with u .

I have seen u in tears
I want to persist ur smile
The day I realized ur value
The day I was lost all alone
I couldn’t ignore ur presence in absence

In my moments of happiness and sorrow
U are in my memory
I want to share with u first
Whatever mistake we do u take the blame
U r strangled between the plays of bonds
U cant move nowhere

Only when I am away from u
I realize ur influence in me
I tend to do things as u do
I try to become you
I think that makes me different

How I used to grumble
U scold me,I complain myself
But as I grew up,I found a friend in u
I tried to be closer to you
And u shared ur wisdom with me.

I gain experience from ur life
Even when I am stuck
I have a purpose to fight for
And that is solely for ur happiness

When soul cries,I seek you
I convey pain by words
Thinking words lessen the pain
People laugh at,ignore it
But when I feel the same from you
My heart crumble into pieces
I stop expecting from you
My mind raises several questions
Immersing myself in deep thoughts
I fail to conceal my pain
The waves that struck me may hit you once
You feel the pain in me
I wont let you know what hurt is
Unless the soul of friendship is awake in me.

ON MY BIRTHDAY

Happy Birthday to me!!!!!!!

As usual as I was checkin my blog,I felt I must write something on my birthday..So I am going to scribble …

The day I came to this earth.The day my tiny eyes witnessed a new world filled with strangers. I blinked my eyes to look at the faces of all pampering me .The day..everyone cared 4 me..Wished me..gave me gifts.. I was so happy..At school everyone wished me looking at chocolates.in my hand..I was very happy to distribute sweets among all as I was the center of attraction..Till school I celebrate my birthday based on my star..But in college my birthdate became my birthday for my friends..hehe so I celebrated two days as birthday in a year…The day I spent with my friends is truly the day I feel being lucky to be born…only cheers and laughter..Birthdays always made me so happy.If I feel any of my friends forget my birthday I will give a ring and tell them to wish me(hehe what a gal am i?).I don’t know y I felt so..if I come to know about anyone’s birthday I will wish them..i felt birthdays are meant to be happy..no matter whose birthday it is..but now I think was I so fortunate to be on earth..i don’t know? But can’t be happy either thinking so..

How can I forget my last birthdays? I had university exam on that day..But it didn’t spoil my birthday..I wore new dress and went to college..On seeing me my friends asked whether I had come to attend the exam or for a marriage? Hastily completed the exam,as I had invited my friends to my home..I reached home with some of my friends..but rest of them haven’t reached yet..we were waiting for them..I came to know they were busy in ‘archies’ selecting a gift for me..I told them to come fast..But reshma has taken a oath that she wont leave a shop atleast spending 1 hour..After few minutes they arrived..Hmm then everyone wished me gave me the gifts,then snaps.My mother prepared a big feast..Every event was accompanied with snaps…The silence all around was broken by laughter and pranks.Then my best friend including some other close friends from school would visit me..Then we would go to beach ,temples..hav fun and laughter…But now on this birthday..noone is beside me.The busy schesule in all our life’s has already begun..

Every year I celebrated with my friend whose birthday is also on the same day..From college I got two more friends as my birthday buddies.. This year as a gift,I got another buddy.it was my friend’s(reshma) neice..From now ownwards reshma would never ever forget to wish me …Earlier I valued their gifts more but now their absence make me realize that what I valued was not their gifts but their presence in my life..But GOD made me fortunate enough to hear their wishes on my birthday..The feeling of someone remembering my day even in absence makes me happier more than before..I miss u all….luv u all a lottt….